loneliness...

it's weired. sometimes you have so many people around you, but you still feel the loneliness inside of you...

You want to say what you think, but you are also afraid that nobody will listen to you. Or that they may don't understand you. Or that they want to leave your side because they think you are kind of crazy. every feel something like that?

At the end, the truth is not interesting to anyone anyway. Be honest, the gossips are always much more important to the people, right? guessing around, feeling better after talking bad about someone, maybe one of your best friend but who cares. It's really sad how breakable some friendships are. (If you can call somthing like this "friendship")

Of course, I believe that there are exceptions too. I admire these people, really. To tell the truth, I also envy them.

It's hard that nobody can understand what you are thinking, it's dangerous that maybe some people just want to take advantage of you, it's tiresome to look for a real friend over and over again. It's maybe better to just be alone, but that would make me even more lonely, right?

And there is of course the thing called "love". If it's hard to find a honest friend, how hard is it to find the true love? 

It's difficult to be always happy. Do you know the film called "pursuit of happiness" with the main actor Will Smith? a great film, and so, so damn true...

Huges Nighty >.<